Real meaning

I have been thinking a lot about what I was going to say about this Christmas holiday or what pictures I would choose to post. I think I am just going to write about what I have learned. So far, this Christmas has been the most touching and humbling one of my life. There has been more charity, love and learning than I have ever seen in one month.
It all begin at the beginning of December when we took our car in for what we thought was only an inspection to get it registered. What it ended up being was a $400 bill for fixing a broken axle. There was no way we were going to be able to pay it. What money we could fork out was what we were going to use for Christmas. Tyler's parents let us borrow their car until we could find the money to pay for our car. This went on for about a week or two. Then one day after Tyler had picked me up from work, we were pulling into the driveway when we saw our car sitting there. We just looked at each other. We didn't know what to say. We just sat there and cried. Once we got ourselves together, we went inside We called our parents to see if they had anything to do with this. They both said that they didn't know anything about it.Who could have done something so selfless? Especially when Christmas was right around the corner?
A co-worker and good friend from work knew of our money situation and decided that she wanted to help us out so I could at least get a stocking for Tyler. Tyler stayed up all night Christmas Eve to clean our apartment.
On Christmas morning:
Tyler's parents got him some much needed church clothes. We were able to talk to Warner, Tyler's brother who was on a mission. We got to make breakfast for my family and us kids got to go in on presents for my mom and dad. I got to give Tyler the framed BOM timeline that my dad helped me build. He also made a desk for Tyler to be able to do his school work. It was a very exhausting and emotional day.
I have always wanted to think of myself as someone who wouldn't care if I didn't get a thing for Christmas. That just wasn't true. But now, I can say with all my heart that I wouldn't care if I never received another gift in my life. I just need my family and Tyler with me. I am so grateful for trials and what they can teach you if you let them. Every time I am going through some kind of hard ship I think of a specific verse from this church song that we sang in young women's.
"Sometimes he lets it rain, he lets the fierce winds blow. Sometimes it takes a storm to lead a heart where it can grow. He can move mountains of grief and oceans of pain. But sometimes he lets it rain".

I truly know what it's like to give without expecting anything in return and I have learned that there really are good people in this world. I still love Christmas just as much as ever but now, for very different reasons.

Most Wonderful Tree

After much deliberation as to whether I should post pictures of our Christmas tree, I have decided to post. I worry that the pictures won't do justice but after receiving awesome compliments from my great VT's, Carissa and Mckenna, I'm doin it. Does anyone ever really read pre-picture explanations anyway?
BTW, I am slowly trying to get rid of Tyler's beloved, hoarded magazine collection. Every time I clean, I throw 1 or 2 away. He still hasn't noticed.


Toben checking for poison..


Tyler being hot and awesome..





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Probation

When I was 16, I was put on house arrest. Why I did has nothing to do with my story so I will omit this bit of info. While on house arrest, I would have to call my parole officer when I was leaving to school to tell him I was leaving. I would have to call again once I got home to tell him I was home and if I went anywhere else throughout the day, I would have to call and check in. I was aslo not allowed to leave the house without my mom or dad with me.
I am now 22 and for the past 6 months have been on another round of probation. This probation is nothing like my probation I was on when I was 16.
I work at Slate Canyon Youth Center, or 'DT' as the street folk call it. Once you start working here you have to go through a 6 month probation period which means, if they don't like, they can get rid of you. Oh the anticipation.
I am still working and am happy to announce that I have served my time honorably. Which means, I can be guilt free when I schedule in my 5 hours of daily slack off time.
Life is good.

Learning Things

I just learned something new about myself just now. Men who can juggle are really really attractive.

Not Caring

This seems to be a trend this week in blogging. Posting things you don't care about. I saw this on Caitlyn Cox's blog. This goes along great with the whole theme of my blog. It's a lot more fun to not care. Easier on the heart too.

Things I don't care about:

wearing clothes multiple times before washing them

washing a dish with soap before putting it away

swearing- sometimes it's really funny.

smiling

SMALL TALK

using tissues for a runny nose

wedding etiquette-Thank You cards? I said it when you came to the reception.

admitting that I STILL love Clay Aiken

farting

answering my phone

staying as skinny as I was in high school

eating expired food

being tan

wearing bikinis-"show the goods while you got em"-Jodi Henson

BYU

celebrities-total narcissists

world peace

True Love

Today, Tyler told me I was the worm in the apple of his eye.
He loves me.

Spel Chekk Plese

Since I get paid 8 hours a day for blog stalking, I have noticed some things. People cannot spell. I go through blog after blog, post after post of horrific spelling & grammar. I just don't understand. Are people just that confident that they think they don't need to use that cute little ABC check mark in the corner? Is it just not important in their life? Are they just so rushed and busy that they think as long as they get the time to post, we will excuse this horrible sin?
I would take time to point out a few, very common mistakes that I see on a regular basis, but that, I feel is just too offensive to the English language and to my fellow bloggers. If you do not know the difference between they're, there, and their. You're dead to me.
Seriously. I didn't even graduate!..It's true. No cap and gown for me but I can sure as hell spell 'accessory' any day of the week.
As I look through my past posts, I notice that I complain A LOT.(<----see that? They are two separate words) But that's what I do. I notice things about that world that bug me. Why hide my true feelings just cause I have a blog that everyone can read? If someone isn't around to point out every one's flaws, how can they improve? I feel this is my civic duty. Why I was put on this earth. That and to save the animals of course. Which by the way is going great.
Is it too much to ask for everyone to promise me they will use spell check before they post?

By the way. I have noticed lately that when a man is with his wife/girlfriend at a social gathering, he will start to tell a story whether it be about another person, a trip they went on, etc. Sometime during the story the man will lean over to their woman and ask them to confirm a specific fact. A person's age, the date of the trip, etc. The woman responds, then the man instantly questions the woman's answer, or rejects the answer altogether! What?! Why even ask? Is it just a ploy to remind the woman that she is always wrong? In another life I'll become and man and figure it out.

And I know what you're thinking. I spell checked this post. Just because I knew you were going to think that, I didn't.